MY MAN IS THE ABSOLUTE MOSTEST!!!
Going through, and coming out of somewhat of a nervous breakdown / exhaustion. Had some extremely tough days followed by some scarey physical manifestations of said stress.
I come home from work the next evening to find my husband has a virtual cart full of books on Amazon for me waiting to hit the approve button. We are talking mondo books. Even some hardcover books. I love books. Books make me happy. My hubby makes me deliriously happy. Sigh.....
I always like to keep a list of books I am interested in. I love to read book reviews, and get all frustrated when I can't remember that cool book I read about at the Dr's / Hairdressers / Dentist. So now, I am keeping a post it not on my computer of books I want.
My baby bought the whole list for me!!!!!!!!!!!!! Yipppeeeee!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I have been obsessing over the 'Million Little Pieces' Book. All the reviews ecstatically emphasize how powerful this book is. So powerful that the city was wiped out! I finally got my hands on it now. The first two chapters have me hooked. I actually can't believe I am here blogging - I've got books to read damn it!
I just wanted to take time to check in before I head off to bookland.
And rave about my baby. He's bombastic.
My list of Booty:
"A Million Little Pieces (Oprah's Book Club)"James Frey
*Started it - LOVING IT. Need perspective? Starting to take your fellow humans for granted (or youself)? Find your humanity - read this book stat.
"Running with Scissors"Augusten Burroughs
"The Next Big Thing"Johanna Edwards
"The Glass Castle : A Memoir"Jeannette Walls
"Everyone Worth Knowing"Lauren Weisberger
"The Devil Wears Prada: a Novel"Lauren Weisberger
"Valley of the Dolls"Jacqueline Susann
A Dilemma....
So... I have a problem. I may have 'unintentionally' flirted with my previous employer. I have a phone meeting with them on Friday. Panic mode. I don't know what I am going to say.
It's kinda like this...
Imagine your in high school. You dated this cute boy. Great Hair, great teeth, solid background, knew exactly where he was going, how he was getting there and when. Let's say you dated for two semesters. But by the end of the second semester. You were really sick of the friends he was desperately hanging onto - despite the way they screwed him over continuously. You were sick of the way he chewed his food. You were sick of him taking advantage of you all the time, cuz he knew you were sure to put out when asked. And maybe his Dad was - a bit spineless and quick to dismiss you. He loved you. So did his Dad. But they thought you were a constant fixture and you wanted some shit to change or you were leaving his ass. So you got a better offer - and ditched him just after the prom. Some bitterness. Some surprise. Real Dissappointment.
You left your sure (but frustrating) thing for Billy Betterboy. Wrong side of the tracks kind of kid, but from an old family. Lot's of money to waste. Disorganized. Chaotic. No sense of direction. Everything about this guy is ass backwards. His friends are DRAMATIC and he always has you running from one ditch to the next. He really has a hard time making up his mind and sticking to a decision....and his Dad. His Dad is a used car salesman who is dedicated to micro managing your relationship. He calls you 3-5 times a day and writes you big blobby emails. With no paragraphs and a great deal of exclamation marks. Sometimes bolded and in 20pt font. Lucky you. You never know what his agenda is, but you always have a feeling it's not about your best interests. Billy and his Dad are giving you anxiety and an ulcer. And they are strongly impeding your ability to have balance and make babies. Because - you can't even go there you are so wound up.
What to do? Go back to bachelor #1? You know his flaws, but he's going places. And you might have patience and perspective now to let the small stuff roll off your back. And the confidence to stick to your guns and not put up with crap. Or do you stick with Billy. Billy and his Dad. His Dad - the carcinogen himself.
Or Maybe you haul you ass out and start dating various members of the football team. or maybe some jocks from other sports...get some variety in your dating experience.
Big questions to ask myself. I don't know what I will do. I hate retail - I mean dating. I'm so damn good at it though. Urgghhhh.
A NEW CALMING TECHNIQUE - CHANNELING THE JOB I SECRETLY DESIRE...
My new passion is driving to work and imagining I am going to my job as a Safeway cashier.
Safeway - the land of milk and honey. No, it really is. Literally.
Ahhhh, the Bliss of it. I even practice the transaction steps to Big J (He thinks I'm nuts):
"Hi" (Optional)
"Find Everything Okay?" (Also Optional)
"Milk in a Bag?"
"Airmilesclubcard?" (This is best said as if it is all one word. Savestimeorsomethin')
"Have a Nice Day"... (Also Optional)
MY GOD IF ONLY I COULD SAY THOSE WORDS OVER AND OVER AND NEVER HAVE TO ACTUALLY MAKE A DECISION FOR ANYONE.....I WOULDN'T EVEN GET PHONE CALLS FROM MY BOSS EVERY DAY. NICE. :)
Cat News
Just a side note - I am feeling better about the cat. We got his ashes home. That was good. I'm glad we did it. The Vet was very confident that it was cancer when J took him in at the end. I am relieved we didn't spend the $1400 on exploratory surgery. What a waste his last days would have been. Miss him terribly. We have got to stop leaving our dark clothing laying around. We each keep thinking it's him. That part is very sad.
What's more said is I miss that little bastard standing on me all night. I miss it all. He was so damn cute.
I loooovee you Charlie Charlie >^..^<
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